I wrote the book, mission accomplished, I told myself

But it wasn’t, not really. When I wrote the book, my idea was to share what I have learned in 40 + years working as a paediatrician and a homeopath. And I wanted to do it from the point of view of a mother of two wonderful, challenging, grown up children. 

By the way, I have always struggled with this particular gap in English. The economy of words that makes the English manuscript of my book about 20 pages shorter than the Spanish one, does not work in this case. There is no single word to describe my-grown-up-children, it is as if, because they were born from me, they will always remain children to me.

Sorry, that was a little act of revenge on this language, which has been my way of communicating for the last 35 years and is still resisting me.

 After a very frustrating year and a half, I have realized 

that, the said mission, can also be accomplished through other ways of communicating that include, Oh God, no please!, technology. So, here I am, after months of hearing the same message from all fronts and sprouting the same lovely excuses: “I am not good at technology”, “it does not come naturally to me”, “I am from a different generation”, “I don’t understand how it functions”, delivering my first attempt.

I am doing a course with Dr. Srini Pillay (those who know me will be smiling, I am always doing at least one course, the permanent student, a human work on progress). He is a Harvard trained psychiatrist and brain researcher, and his course, “Implementing the Science behind the Law of Attraction” has just the right amount of science and practical tools for me. Yesterday we had to focus on one area where we are not doing what we are suppose to do, and ask ourselves, “What would happen if I was doing what I know that I need to do?” 

Of course, I did it on my inability to focus on a plan to market my book. I am currently doing a course on producing audiobooks, doing another course to improve my English pronunciation, and trying unsuccessfully to get my book onto Publish Drive or Draft2Digital, two platforms that distribute books. All while carefully avoiding building an email list and trying to get some reviews in the US, which I know is what I actually need to do. 

Here are the answers to the question: What is my subconscious predicting will happen if I start marketing my book in earnest?. A demolishing series of statements such as “it will be a failure”, “everybody will see the fraud I am”, “people will talk about me and laugh about my pretension of being a writer”, and other comments so disempowering that I am astonished that, despite this background noise running in my brain, I am still up and trying. 

So, I have decided that this will be my signal to my subsconscious,

I am going to write here, and it is going to be okay, even if my English is still not perfect, even if there are people far more clever or more informed than me. I am going to write because I know I can bring a different angle, and because there are children and parents who will find something useful in what I share.

This will be a space for parents, educators, caregivers, professionals who live or work with neurodivergent people, and also for adults who experience life differently from the norm.

I am planning to share snippets of science and of my personal experience of being neurodivergent myself, of having neurodivergent children, and of having spent the last 12 years of my professional career caring for children who were experiencing behavioral difficulties at school 

And, if you are interested on the book, at the moment is only available as an ebook on Amazon, but that will soon change because I am breaking free from procrastination, I hope!. In the meantime, the link is https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0FJL4SQCY 

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